Is Activated Charcoal any good? And what for?

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Why is everyone raving about Charcoal?
Don’t get confused it’s not the same Charcoal you would put on the BBQ! Avoid those, they’re full of toxins! What I’m talking about is Activated Charcoal!
What is Activated Charcoal? 
It is a form of carbon that is formed to have small pores that can increase adsorption.
It’s a natural treatment people use to adsorb toxins and chemicals and flush them naturally out of the body. It’s often used as treatments for drug overdoses or poisoning.
For the Skin:
Today I tried a Charcoal scrub that came with my Glossybox this month. These dark grey granules turn darker as they are rubbed into your skin with water. It turned the water on my skin black and he granules were a lot more rough than I had thought. But it certainly felt like I was giving myself a good scrub. It was exceptionally messy and did get everywhere in the shower but it’s no problem as you just wash it all off and down the cubicle. Watching the black Charcoal and water go down the plug made me feel cleaner already. My skin felt amazing which is exactly what anyone would want from a scrub. Once dry, my skin is now still silky smooth, it feels like a fresh layer of skin! I’m impressed!!
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For the Face:
It’s recommended for acne and problem skin. Like most people I have blackheads and notice that the Charcoal pore strips are much better. I use them on my nose and chin! The face washes are particularly good as they
For your Teeth:
It’s come alight that Charcoal is meant to whiten your teeth but does it really work? I have been using Just Smile activated charcoal powder, twice a day for 8 days now.  I am a huge fan of white teeth and teeth whitening. I usually use whitening strips but I have been desperate to find something more organic and natural. No nasties! My teeth aren’t really stained however I have two teeth on my lower set at the front that always stain and there the ones you can notice, they’re the ones I need to particularly focus on! The idea of Activated Charcoal powder is that you wet your toothbrush and pick up the powder in the pot with the wet toothbrush, you should brush your teeth for 2-3 minutes and rinse. Like all Charcoal products it can be pretty messy so avoid wearing white!! But it will wash away from the sink easily so don’t worry. You do have to wash your mouth out several times as the Charcoal stays around your gum lines an tongue! A thorough cleanse is needed!
 I have noticed a difference in my teeth in just 8 days, although not as dramatic as maybe I had wanted, but it does work! I will still keep using it daily, I love how much you get and for the price. It’s a bargain and It’s natural, so it’s a winner for me! Here’s my before and after pictures, picture on the left is day 1 and right pic is day 8:
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If you want to try this you can use my code ANASTASIA10 for 10% off Just Smile and can be pricked by clicking here 
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Please note this powder must not substitute brushing your teeth! You must still brush your teeth twice a day and make sure your toothpaste has 1350-1500ppm of Fluoride as this helps against tooth decay.  
For the Body:
A few years ago I tried Charcoal Tablets. The reason I decided to give them a whirl is because I suffer with IBS and at the time it was really angry. I had heard that it would help eliminate the toxins in your body that would cause bloating and gas.  However I didn’t feel that it worked as well as I had hoped so naturally I swapped it for peppermint tea which I feel is much better for me.
There are some medical people that have advised that people taking medication should avoid using the charcoal tablets. The reason being is that Charcoal will adsorb things so it is likely it will make your medication less likely to work.
I really hope you guys enjoyed this post and have a bit more knowledge about Activated Charcoal.
xoxo

A Collaboration with Treat yourself Boutique

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Hi everyone!

Today I’m writing all about a new boutique that is Vegan and Cruelty Free. They sell a range of items from makeup, clothing and home decor. The boutique’s owner is half Thai so you will see some influences in their products. I was sent goodies from the owner as she interested in my thoughts on her products. I have provided the boutique with my honest opinions and as I was so impressed by some of the products I just wanted to share my favourite items with you all. The boutique is called Treat yourself Boutique and you can visit the sit by clicking here. The owner of the company is so friendly, it is always a pleasure to chat to her. You can see how passionate she is about her boutique which makes it so worthwhile for me. I asked her if she would be happy to answer a few questions so you can all get to know her a bit. I will firstly show you some of my favourite items.

Here are some of my favourite products:

They have such a range of different glitters which can be applied on your eyes or lips, its perfect for the Summer and a must have Festival accessory. I used the ‘Wet n Wild’ lipgloss they sell and gently patted the glitter onto my lips. This is one of my favourites on my lips:

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The Lip pencils and Wet n Wild lipsticks are now in my makeup bag. I have worn them a few times whilst being out and they last for over 10 hours. I can eat and drink as much as I want and it doesn’t smudge or budge! They are a must have! The picture below shows Tru Lips Lip Pencils, a Wet n Wild Lipstick & Flower Candles, please not the notebook is my own:

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I am currently loving the below choker, it is also featured in the main picture.

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In the below picture shows a variety of different items, including makeup, jewellery and a beautiful Asian dish:

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I cant forget this adorable elephant cushion that’s made its way onto my sofa:

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More pictures including clothes will be posted on my Instagram. If your not following me on instagram already my username is thisismyxoxo or click here!

Q & A

– How did ‘Treat Yourself Boutique’ start? 

I’ve always liked the idea of having my own shop or website so I had left a career that I was in for so long last year that now seemed like the perfect time. There was a lot of research and decisions and planning but in the end, I just thought no time like the present and designed a website.  It’s a learning curve and still in the early stages so the brand will change over time but if I don’t do it, I’ll regret it.

– What is your inspiration?

I would say that there are 2 things that have inspired me.  The first is my heritage.  I am half Thai but brought up in England so I have had the best of both worlds whilst I was growing up.  A lot of people who get into conversation with me will say oh I love Thailand, I love the food, the people, the clothing etc.  Thai food is easy to find here, it’s the clothing that isn’t.  My particular taste in clothes definitely has a Thai influence and given that I wouldn’t sell anything that I wouldn’t use myself, you will find that a lot of the clothing that I sell will have a Thai influence running through it.

My other influence is actually my house bunny!  I was watching a video online and it was showing a makeup brand testing their products on rabbits.  I did a bit of research and most of the brands that you would think of using for your make – up aren’t cruelty free.

– what makes if different from anyone else?

I am sick of seeing the same type of clothing and the same brands everywhere that I shop.  Treat Yourself Boutique is committed to smaller brands and one off pieces that you won’t find in other shops.  A lot of the products that are listed are bought in smaller amounts so that not everyone has the same thing.  Once they are gone, they won’t be reordered and something else will take its place.  As stated before as well, a lot of the products will have an Asian influence to them.

There is a long process to go through before anything is listed in the store.  Each potential brand is researched to ensure that they are vegan friendly and cruelty free.  A sample is then ordered and tested either by myself or my friends and then sent off to bloggers like yourself who I can trust to give me an honest opinion.  After that, it is listed on the website for sale.  If at any point through this process, it does not meet someone’s expectations, it simply does not get sold.

– If you had any advice for someone looking to start their own business, what would it be?

Go for it.  It’s difficult and time consuming but so rewarding.  You have to be organized, able to budget, creative and have the time and patience to get the right product but when you see your customers wearing your products and loving them, then you know you’ve made someone happy.  There’s nothing worse than going out and not having the right lip gloss or dress that you really want!

– Do you have a favourite quote or a quote that you live by? 

My favourite quote is probably that dreams and dedication are a powerful combination.  I am a strong believer that if you put your mind to something and you have enough dedication, you can do anything that you want.

I hope you all enjoyed reading this post 🙂

xoxo

 

Boutique of Molly

Good Afternoon beautiful people!

Today i’m writing my first Outfit Of The Day post and I really hope you like it, its something I have wanted to do for a while so when I bought my new dress from Boutique of Molly with a little discount from them, I thought why not do my first outfit of the day post along with a Q&A with the company. 

I will be completely honest, I asked my family and boyfriend to take some pictures outside, and after several attempts it generally just wasn’t working. There’s no way of sugar coating it, I just looked awful and I don’t think I was doing the dress any justice! So I took some photos myself.

Outfit of the Day:

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The back of this dress has a slit so when you walk it shows a little bit of leg!

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This dress is called APRIL’ from Boutique of Molly and priced at £29.95. If you fancy buying anything, make sure you use my code   XOXO20 for 20% off your order.

Perfect for: Brunch with the girls, dinner with your boyfriend and an essential dress for every holiday.

Pair with: A cute pair of heels & delicate accessories. The dress is bold and makes a statement on its own.

Q&A time with Boutique of Molly

As I decided to collaborate with the company I was curious about them, who they are and what makes them different. When I approached them and asked if I could ask them a few questions so myself and you guys could get to know them, they were more than happy to answer my questions. You can see the Q&A below:

Q1. How did Boutique of Molly start?BOM started to try and make their stamp in the fashion industry.

Q2. What was your inspiration for the brand?We try to offer a range of celebrity inspired products at a high quality yet affordable prices with a hint of our own pretty style too.

– We have also recently tried to break into the handbag industry. This includes trying to offer men an option on our site with our luggage holdalls. So they can be involved with BOM too! It also offers women to shop for themselves yet surprise their other halves with a matching holdall to their new handbag.

Q3. What makes your brand different?- We believe we offer a pretty style with more statement pieces than simple pieces.

Q4. If you had any advice for anyone what would it be? Our advice to open your own business is to follow your dreams and don’t let anybody tell you you can’t. Don’t give up!

Q5. Do you have a favourite quote or a quote you live by?A favourite quote, would be Follow Your Dreams and Never Give Up

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My experience of working with Boutique of Molly

I have a very positive experience, a lot of my communications with the company was done through twitter however this meant that I always got a reply regardless of what time of the day it was. The person that I spoke to was exceptionally friendly and helpful. I generally cannot fault the customer service I received.  The dress was neatly folded and posted in a pink parcel which happens to be my favourite colour! 

The dress itself is a thick stretchy material, there is no zip or buttons so it is a case of either popping it over your head or stepping into it. For me its all about stepping in! The dress felt very comfortable and despite my larger chest size, the dress sat perfectly. I have often had problems with dresses where they fit everywhere but then in the chest it is too small. In this dress, I simply had no problems. Horray! 

Check out their website by clicking here and don’t forget to use my code XOXO20 for 20% off.

I really hope you guys liked this post.

xoxo

Sudacrem for Spots!

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Picture taken the morning after a Sudacrem mask.

I know it’s not the most glamorous of items but in my opinion you would be pretty silly not to have this in your home.

It’s not just for children and nappy rash. It has so many different uses. My favourite thing is a Sudacrem face mask. So your sitting there thinking why on earth would you want to put nappy rash cream all over your face for? Well i’m sitting here thinking- why aren’t you?

When I wake up with a spot, I cleanse my face and put Sudacrem on the spot straight away. It reduces redness and will be half the size and barely visible when you wake up the next day. But if I am going to apply to the spot, I may as well do a Sudacrem face mask.

There is an ingredient in Sudacrem called Benzyl alcohol that has antiseptic properties and helps to reduce discomfort and redness. I can’t say if this works for acne as I have never had it before but my suggestion would be to try it.

Why a Sudacrem Face Mask?

Trust me, if this isn’t part of your skin routine it should be. I do a sudacrem face mask at least once or twice a week. I particularly like using it when i’m hormonal. My skin starts to get irritated and I can see and feel spots coming up. Once I have throughly cleansed my face I will then apply a layer of sudacrem all over my face (except for my eyelids and lips) and leave on overnight. You will look like a ghost and it will be on your pillow but the next day you will have clear, soft skin.

But how?

The ingredients in Sudacrem help to soothe and heal the skin whilst protecting it against any further infection by acting like a barrier cream.  The antiseptic and antioxidant properties reduce redness and dry out any spots.

Other benefits:

  • Heals cuts and burns
  • Stops chafing!- yes there’s our summer covered
  • Soothes sore skin and helps with eczema 
  • Helps insect bites
  • Great for sunburn and prickly heat

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What’s not to love?

I will be honest here, anything I have whether it be a rash, burn or pimple I always use Sudacrem on it. It’s the best thing out there. Its easily accessible in shops, its so cheap and a little goes a long way!

I hope you guys enjoyed reading about my Sudacrem obsession and I really hope you try it.

xoxo

Benefits of Drinking Tea


There’s not that many people I know that doesn’t enjoy a good cup of Tea and honestly who wouldn’t? As it’s National Tea day today I did some research on the benefits of drinking Tea and was quite surprised at some of the things mentioned, hence the reason I am writing this post. 

10 Facts about Tea

Did you know? 

1. Tea is a natural source of fluoride that can help protect against tooth decay and gum disease.

2. 98% of people take their tea with milk, but only 30% take sugar in tea.

3. You should use fresh water to make tea. Water that’s already been boiled, has lost oxygen which can make your tea taste flat. 

4. Black Tea reduces eye puffiness. Put 2 tea bags in boiling water for 5 mins then take out and squeeze out the liquid then and allow to cool, lastly place the bags on your eyes for 10 minutes. 

5. Slurping aerated the Tea increasing flavours allowing for greater contact with your tastebuds! One Tea in particular called Pu-erh Tea is meant to be slurped. I’m really not sure I could, the noise just goes through me. I always thought slurping was seen as rude. Did anyone else think that? 

6. Most of us are aware of how healthy green teas are as they aid many of our diets. However did you know that’s black tea also contain high levels of antioxidants. In particular black tea contains polyphenols, which can help our bodies fight cancer, cardiovascular disease, diabetes and other illnesses.

7. It’s not as bad for you as coffee. It contains half the amount of caffeine but lots of antioxidants therefore you want experience the highs and lows like you would with coffee. 

8. It takes 2,000 tiny leaves to create just one pound of finished tea. 

9. Timing is everything- Brewing time should be 3-5 minutes

10. The most expensive teabag in the world is a handcrafted diamond teabag made by Boodles jewelers worth $15,250, which contains 280 diamonds and is being used to raise money for a children’s charity in Manchester, England.


More Tea Facts can be found using the links below under Sources Used. 

Sources used:

http://www.tea.co.uk

http://www.teaanswers.com

http://www.spinfold.com

I really hope everyone enjoyed this post and is drinking lots of tea today, I know I will be and let’s not forget dunking those biscuits! 

xoxo

The quickest way to get your Blonde hair from Brassy to Sassy! 💁🏼

I’m finally getting my roots done and a trim tomorrow after 4 months of it last being done. As you know you should touch up highlights every 6-8 weeks to keep it fresh and avoid those scary roots creeping through. So I know your sitting there thinking how on earth did she manage to make it last 4 months, surely she’s exaggerating. I can say I am 100% not as I have had the same hairdresser for about 12 years and even though I have moved to Kent, I wait till I visit home before I get my hair done. Yes I have trust issues, but so would you if you have had some dodgy hair before finding your favourite hairdresser! 
So I thought I would share today with you my secrets of keeping my hair looking full of life and sassy. 

What you need: 
1. Provoke touch of silver intensive Shampoo and Conditioner

2. Paint brush and bowl (optional)

3. Heat protector Spray


Being blonde and having highlights means that your hair will literally go yellow after a while as all the brassiness starts to show. So I picked up so brightening shampoo and conditioner from my nearest pound land/ home and bargains. I paid about £1.99 for Provoke Touch of Silver Intensive shampoo and £1.99 for the Provoke touch of silver conditioner. In total it cost £3! 
Now I tried it both ways. Firstly I tried a few washes in the shower which did lighten my hair but as time went on and as I have thick hair I noticed a lot of brassiness showing through so I discovered something even better.

I sat on the floor with a towel over my shoulders, poured a quarter of the shampoo into a mug and used a paintbrush to go through sections of my hair whilst my hair was dry. How long you leave it for is how much you want it to lift. It works like a toner! I left it for 10 minutes as I defiantly had some yellow going on at the sides. 


I then washed it out and shampooed it with the touch of silver and a different shampoo which was keratin based and followed it with Provoke intensive conditioner for about 3 minutes before washing. 

When your hair is wet I think it’s important to towel dry it before you start blasting heat onto it, as I can just dry your hair up. When my hair was towel dry, I brushed through my hair with a detangler as they are much more gentle than a brush and you won’t pull as much hair out! Before you dry your hair spray on a good heat protector spray, my favourite is by Paul Mitchell and has lasted a long time! 

Another tip would be to gently curl the ends or odd strands to naturally lift your hair and give it some natural bounce. 

After all the tips above this is what my hair looked like straight after: 


I hope this post was useful for you Blondies out there! Remember stay Sassy and never Brassy! 💁🏼

xoxo

What’s inside my makeup bag? 

Good Morning Everyone today I thought I would share with you what I take everywhere with me so let’s take a look in my makeup bag.. 


So what’s inside? 

– Clinique Superbalanced Foundation 

– Clinique concealer

– Rimmel London Bronzer

– Max Factor False Lash effect

– Blank Canvas Foindation Brush

– Luxie Cosmetics angled brush

I like to wear light makeup for a more natural look. I find I have to take these little things with me as I always end up sneezing or my eyes water! It’s hilarious, if I left it I would look like a clown 😂 

What’s in your makeup bag?

xoxo

A Vintage Experience with We are Cow

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Whenever I go home, I always try to make time to try new places whether that is shops, bars or restaurants. My family and I decided to do a spot of shopping in the City centre as you do. One of my favourite areas to visit in Liverpool is Bold Street. Over the last two years more shops and quirky restaurants, bars and boutiques have popped up. This is were I came across We are Cow Vintage which sells Men’s and Women’s Vintage. I will be honest, its often quite rare for me to buy anything from Vintage Stores as either the clothes don’t fit me or I just look ridiculous.

Most of the time when you think Vintage, its easy to think Charity Store. A shop full of racks everywhere with no organisation and you simply have to go through everything. It’s exhausting. This is what really gets under my skin, I like to walk in and know where to head to first and where I can find things. I’m not impatient, I just cant cope with mess! To my relief, We are Cow are not like this. Hurray! I walked in and instantly distinguished the Men’s side to the Women’s. I could easily see the sections of clothes, the bottom floor was also done the same. This made it a pleasant experience to shop in.

They have Amazing Changing rooms! I know that sounds crazy but I couldn’t get over them. It was a wall of lockers at the back downstairs. I walked in circles twice before asking a Sales assistant who took me over to the wall and opened a door. It felt so surreal. I literally sat there thinking I’m now part of the wall!! Here’s a little clip of the inside:

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How adorable are the door handles in the above picture?!!

Some of the products were ‘reworked’ which gave the item a nod to the modern day fashion. What is reworked clothing?  This is were an item of clothing in this case for example a Vintage Designer top is shortened, trimmed, rolled up and sometimes dyed to create a new piece that may be more popular with modern day fashion. Combining the old with the new.

I fell in love with several reworked items but made a decision to take home just two tops. I am a nightmare when it comes to Clothes shopping. I am the one that will literally have a meltdown and say she’s too fat, my boobs look saggy, I look like I have water retention etc. You get were I’m going with this. My family and the male sales assistant all assured me that I didn’t look any of these and despite my worries, the male sales assistant was nothing but kind, genuine and patient. It was such a lovely experience.

What did I buy?

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Two Super cute Ralph Lauren Reworks!!

Where are they located?

They are located in Liverpool (on Bold Street), Manchester, Sheffield, Nottingham and Birmingham. If your not in any of those places- don’t worry, you can get everything online by clicking here.

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Trust me its worth a look, even my dad came out with something!

xoxo

March 2017 Glossybox Review

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I am so much more impressed with March’s Glossybox. I was a little disapointed in some of the recent boxes as I received a few duplicates and I started to notice the brands of the products I was receiving were more ones that I could buy anywhere. What I loved about Glossybox was the products that I hadn’t heard of were included, it was a great way to introduce different brands. I have been a subscriber of Glossybox for probably almost 4 years and never had any concerns until recently.

Products Received:

Sleek Makeup- Eye and Cheek Palette

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GOT2B- Styling Primer

FRUU- Fruitilicious Watermelon lip balm

OOLUTION-Eye Love

 

Sleek Makeup– Eye & Cheek Palette

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A slim line palette perfect for your handbag or clutch bag. As you can see above the palette is a mixture of colours, there is a pink cheek blush and bronzer along with a smokey eye look. Retail Price is £10.00. To get onto the the Website click Sleek The only downfall for me was the brushes, the small brush and eyeshadow applicator isn’t very good for applying the makeup. The colour did literally looked like it was ‘slapped’ on! I would suggest using your own brushes to blend the makeup. I managed to smooth the shadow over on my eyes however I did have to blend my cheeks with a reliable brush. Here’s a look below using only the sleek palette:

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FRUU– Fruitilicious Watermelon Lip Balm

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This cute little guy was made by a professor of Cosmetics at the London College of Fashion. Retail Price is £2.99 and can be found here It smells lovely and is quite tasty too! It’s strange as it comes out in an oval shape so you have to place the balm quite flat on your lips. It feels lovely and for the retail price its worth carrying around this cute guy in your purse. Why wouldn’t you? It’s packed full of superfruit ingredients, to name one is avocodo oil. Its PETA Certified, cruelty free and vegan friendly. No nasties just goodness!

OOLUTION– Eye Love

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This is AMAZING!! I am so impressed with this and I would recommend it to everyone! It is recommended that you do this morning and evening but I thought I would start off just trying it in the evening. I have used it for 10 nights now and I have noticed such a dramatic difference mostly in my fine lines. There smoother and reduced a lot! I am going to start using it in the mornings aswell. I apply a rice grain amount and rub in circular motions outwards, within seconds I can feel it tightening! Its 100% natural and full of antioxidants, truely amazing and worth every penny. Its Retail Price is £30.00 and can be bought from OOLUTION

This Works– In transit camera close-up

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Named as a hero of products by Glossybox and it’s actually quite good. It claims to moisturise, prime, plumps and brightens. It’s been reported as Victoria Beckham’s favourite too. It does actually work, I was a little worried by the slightly thicker consistency as I generally thought it going to stick in patches on my face but it actually glides over and your makeup really does just stick to it. I’m equally impressed! The retail price is £30.00 and you can get it here

GOT2B– Styling Primer

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Before Styling you should always Prime your hair, its an absolute must. Regardless of what style your going for this beauty works into damp hair ready to create a look you want. Its retail price is £4.18 so pretty cheap in comparison to many. It can be found here

My Favourite product this month if you haven’t guessed already is OOLUTION Eye Love. I’m lusting over it everyday! If you get this Glossybox too, what was your favourite product and why?

xoxo

How Anxiety makes me feel

Since chatting to many different bloggers, if there is one thing I have learnt it is to share. I am ‘that’ person that worries about what people think, about being judged. Spending more time speaking with bloggers has made me think ‘Why?’ Why should I care about what people think of me?’

I was too embarrassed and private to share with people my experiences or upsets because I was  worried about making myself more vulnerable. Usually to get anything out of me, you need to turn up at my house with a bottle of wine and box of chocolates, then after a large glass of wine I may start opening up to you.

So my main reason for writing this post is that I have decided to put myself out there and open up. I know that by sharing some of my experiences, there will always be someone that may feel either the same or something similar.

It’s a big deal opening up, especially to thousands on the internet, you never know who may come across this post. So where should I start?

Anxiety

At some point in our lives most of us will experience this. Whether you’re anxious about a new relationship, a social situation or maybe a decision you need to make. Anxiety can affect you in so many different ways and sometimes without you realising it.

There are some of us, like myself that suffer from this more than others. I have suffered from this as a young child but I didn’t understand what it was. I couldn’t understand why my heart beat so fast, my stomach churned or why I felt so dizzy in a room full of people. Growing up I went through Primary and Secondary school being forced into situations that made me uncomfortable. My hands would go clammy, I would start sweating, hyperventalating and sometimes have blackouts. It was clear that I got myself so wound up, I was a mess. I was too shy to tell anyone. To make things worse I was bullied through both schools which again I found too hard to tell anyone. They would only think I was making a big deal out of it.

When I turned fifteen I started to open up and talk to my mum about it, she always said it’s not worth getting worked up over, just calm down. She always did her best to take my mind off it but despite how much I smiled I still couldn’t shake it. I  freaked out about quite a lot of things.

When I was taking exams we would get told only to look at our paper and infront, I literally would start to panic if I felt myself twitching! and despite studying for month’s, my head would just sit there spinning, I couldn’t concentrate and knew at any point I may just throw up.

Parties or social gatherings had me panicing at the thought of them, all of those people in one room. When I got there I always had to find somewhere to sit that was in a corner, somewhere that meant no one could come behind me and I could see everything infront of me. It was the only way I felt I could feel some control. When I got older, alcohol became my control, it gave me like everyone else a bit of false confidence whether that meant being able to walk by a crowd with my head up looking were I was going or going to the toilet on my own!

My anxiety did make me feel like I was almost reliant on people, I was often to scared to do anything alone and cared too much what people thought. I couldn’t even go to the local shop at the bottom of the road. It was ridiculous.

As I got older I began to force myself into uncomfortable positions which sounds like a ridiculous idea but I found it forced me to cope and learn. Yes on some occasions I almost blacked out, but I wouldn’t change it as It’s definatly helped me become the person I am now. I’m not suggesting its right to throw yourself into uncomfortable situations but taking baby steps may help you.

Coming out of your comfort zone will only benefit you.

Taking little steps has seen me make some outrageous decisions recently. Almost three years ago I met my partner and began a long distance relationship, a five hour journey on the train to see each other at weekends. A year later we decided to move in together, I’m not sure how I did but I moved down South to be with him, I took on a completely  different job I had never done before without knowing anyone. Being 5 hours away on the train from my family who I am exceptionally close to was a huge challenge. I had the support from everyone and my closest friends. Unfortunatly what should be an exciting experience has so far turned out a real test to my anxiety. Within weeks of moving, my mother got very ill. Everytime I said I was going to move back she said no and she meant it, she only wanted me to be happy, she wanted me to try. I couldn’t cope being so far and knowing how ill she was. Everytime I rushed home when she was in the hospital, I kept being sick and blacking out because it made me so anxious. It developed into mum being in a hospice and staying over night. Then what I had prayed would never happen did, we lost her. My world fell apart after that. My anxiety went through the roof and I couldn’t control anything. I eventually admitted I needed help. I started taking anti depressants and seen a counsellor. A year and half later I am still living 5 hours away, I am still on my tablets but I am pushing to keep going.

Like my mum taught me, you have to keep fighting even when things get tough. You can’t give up no matter what life throws at you. It may make you wobble or slightly weak at first but you will get stronger. Even with these tablets I would never have been able to cope now if I hadn’t forced myself into some situations in the past.

So like my mum used to say ‘Chin up sweetie’ xoxo